We have been here before, you and I.
I have promised to do better and be better but
here I am again, apologizing for leaving.
Apologizing for not being good enough or brave enough
or just too lazy to summon the strength to win.
You are my drunken nightcap and my blissful blackout,
I want to drown myself in you until I am not overeating anymore.
Until I am not see seesawing on the pendulum of I love myself
I hate myself. I love myself to much. I hate myself. I hate myself.
I hate myself for loving myself too much, too abusively.
But maybe I can remember how to forget again.
Maybe I can remember how to forgive again.
Maybe I can just breathe again.
Maybe. Just maybe.